Grandmother stories

aloha!

just a lil bit about my life since i last wrote. the crazy cough is back. i mean, i didnt really even leave at all and i've made the decision to finally see a doctor proper tmr cause one of my colleague was telling me how it might be bronchitis or neumonia or idk what since its been with me for what.. 4 months?! and also, the left knee cap is being a bitch. so might as well go consult a doctor about all my problems. (if he gives me mc thn i get to go camp symmetry *bonus* but no la i dw to take mc cause crucial time now. unless i rly got some serious illness *choy*)

ha! ok thats pretty much it. the past few days in auckland was kinda hard to live through cause i was honestly so bored and lonely and tortured having to survive on 300 mb of internet access a day. cause that means i cant watch running man on my phone. and i cant online shop for too long and i cant refresh instagram 10 times in an hour just for fun. but oh well. i survived it. HURRAH. home feels really good. i just wish i get to really spend time with my family but mum and dad are so busy working and the brother has got school and girls to deal with. *rolls eyes*

i feel been some time since i last did a nonsense entry like this. like.. talking to myself. maybe the loneliness is rly taking its toll on me. ha! ok. whatever the case, its a pretty good day for me today. i watched cloudy with a chance of meatball 2 with my dearest Trishy and its such a cute movie with cute graphics and it just makes me happy. well, i just rly like cartoon movies. speaking of that, i caught 50/50, crazy stupid love, the grey, the three scrooges and katy perry;part of me, all in auckland. The Grey was scary cause i watched that in the middle of the night. i woke at 1am after having a bad dream about my cousin telling me how my hotel room is haunted (helluva scary dream right!?) and how timely for them to be airing "The Grey" which is a movie about an airplane crashing on this really cold place and everyone either died in the crash or got eaten by wolves on the snowy mountains. freaked myself out quite badly thn decide to try to sleep again. but constantly bothered by the dream i had earlier on. such a loser. so i climbed out of bed and had 3 kiwis. yup, at 4am. there, summary of how i spent my days in Auckland. i mean, i did go out alone earlier in the day but its just me and the cold wind and the many closed shops since it was weekends. how did i even end up talking about this. grandma xy.

well well, i'd better turn in now. highly likely that part of the reason why im getting so fat and why my body is starting to fail me is due to the fact that i sleep at all the wrong time and eat at all the wrong time. i need a discipline master la. where are you my prince! im getting so impatient already. bloody hell horoscope tell me by october i will find. today OCTOBER 31st ALREADY OK! MAYBE ITS THE DOCTOR I MEET TMR?-..- OR MAYBE I PASSED HIM BY!!! OMG IT MIGHT BE THE DUDE THAT TOLD ME TO GIVE HIM 5 MINUTES ALONG ORCHARD ROAD JUST NOW. siao. this is loner syndrome. kay gotta maintain now ciaos~

it

there, i'm feeling it. what i heard some of them talk about. that feeling of .. not wanting to go.
its either the preflight blues or its just me being nervous about the people i am going to meet or me missing my family. its like you can tell me that i have a choice of a flight to london and a flight to kl and there is a high chance that i will opt to fly to kl instead. its only been 2 months. why am i feeling like that. :(

i even went to look at the courses i can take in laselle. wth is wrong with me. its too early to start the countdown so plsplspls let this be a passing feeling. nts: think about the money. and think about what you can do with it in future. hang in there xy.

bits of life

watched " about time" today with dearest wishing. havent caught a movie since like forever and am glad that this movie is a good one. on a slightly random note, my toenail just fell out. yes, the whole of it. idk how that happened. and idk how i'm going to paint my toenails now. :o

ok gotta crash cause waking up at 9am to go for a run with le brother and thn im going to cook up a feast for us 2. becoming such a family person now. and really appreciating the time i get to spend with mum and dad and bro. even though i feel like the brother doesnt give a shit. oh wellllll!~

Diet

weighed myself today and realise that the situation is really getting out of hand.
so from today on till i go back to 42, no soda for me. and no snacks 2 hrs before sleep. (omg this is going to be so damn hard) and more fruits. i'm being so damn easy on myself already but im still not confident that i will be able to do this.

"good job, here's a bone"

"i've grown too strong to ever fall back in your arms.
dont come back for me. who do you think you are."


i guess what i need is to be constantly surrounded by people who are happy.
and people who reminds me that there is no reason why i should feel lousy over someone lousy.
grateful for this job. grateful for the getaways. and grateful for the people who are nice.