my life has been pretty dramatic i would say.
a few days ago, i went through a second close shave with death in a car accident.
first time was prolly 2 yrs back, out in the sea with a thai dude and a jet ski that failed on us.
both times with fanny. they say you'll realise what matters most to you when you're in the face of death but i kinda dont agree cause my mind was pretty much blank when it happened. i was just like waiting for the impact and thn in my mind it was just " fuck this shit. fuck.... this is not happening." thn the signals were on and the windscreen wiper was turned on and thn i realised it was real. thn the next thing i was concerned about was fanny's safety and thn how my dad would kill me when he sees his car. it was pretty bad. and i think it would be ridiculous to say this but.. SURVIVE A CAR CRASH, CHECKED.
that aside, life has been inconsistent. i'd like to have a zillion moments to hold on to and be happy about and i get that kind of happy from new adventures but it always doesnt last long enough. but thn again with the increasing amt of plane disasters, i just feel kinda ... unwilling to go to work. its like you'll never know what is going to happen once that door closes and you take off. scary to even think about it. ah, asked for signs... these are pretty obvious signs right.
a few days ago, i went through a second close shave with death in a car accident.
first time was prolly 2 yrs back, out in the sea with a thai dude and a jet ski that failed on us.
both times with fanny. they say you'll realise what matters most to you when you're in the face of death but i kinda dont agree cause my mind was pretty much blank when it happened. i was just like waiting for the impact and thn in my mind it was just " fuck this shit. fuck.... this is not happening." thn the signals were on and the windscreen wiper was turned on and thn i realised it was real. thn the next thing i was concerned about was fanny's safety and thn how my dad would kill me when he sees his car. it was pretty bad. and i think it would be ridiculous to say this but.. SURVIVE A CAR CRASH, CHECKED.
that aside, life has been inconsistent. i'd like to have a zillion moments to hold on to and be happy about and i get that kind of happy from new adventures but it always doesnt last long enough. but thn again with the increasing amt of plane disasters, i just feel kinda ... unwilling to go to work. its like you'll never know what is going to happen once that door closes and you take off. scary to even think about it. ah, asked for signs... these are pretty obvious signs right.
