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weekend was peaceful. and i've been listening to this.

peeks

for the better.

today's relatable song:

he held her in his arms, she was shaking uncontrollably from all the crying.
"promise me not to leave me again."
"i can't promise you that. "

and that.. was what went through my mind as i read that last message. it was slightly heart wrenching but i know this is for the better, for everyone. thank you. and i hope you'll be happy in life. that you'll be someone great cause i know you are capable of that if you wanted to. that you'll find someone you can be yourself with; someone you won't have to lie about anything to. and that if one day we cross path, i'll see that this is the right decision. cause you'll be happier. and i'd be too. 

" Sometimes you have to let people go because they are toxic to you. 
   Let them go because they take and take and leave you empty.
   Let them go because in the ocean of life when all you're trying to do 
   is stay afloat, 
   they are the anchor that's drowning you."

Just be Happy for me.

i hate my job. i really do. everyone in the office is coughing i dont think i'll ever recover from mine unless i stop working. went for medical check up today. i dont have a good feeling about this but i'm just gonna keep my fingers crossed. life will work itself out right?

and you, who might or might not be reading this..

i really have made my decision to let go. i really want to put everything behind.
let me go. let me off. do me this last favour.

weekend

this weekend was crazy busy for me.
and finally.. one big load off my chest.
i'm a lucky girl. (:

things i cannot stop saying

thank you. thank you whoever planned my life for letting me have such great friends. thank you thank you thank you. and thank you for letting me learn. even if its the hard way. i am truly blessed.

devote yourself to moving on

"It is the moment I began to learn that there are people who deserve, and people who do not — and that it has nothing to do with some arbitrary concept of leagues. You do not deserve me because you are not a caring, loving person. You are not here to receive love, or grow from it, or give it in kind. You do not deserve me because I am beautiful in a way that a magazine would never photoshop and put on its cover. I am beautiful in the real way, the way that comes from being a person who is capable of empathy and compromise. I am beautiful because I work hard to be nice to other people, and to show them I love them. And sure, you may be good looking. You may be charming. You may have every superficial quality that our society is so quick to deem important. But you are not beautiful, and for that, you will never be deserving of someone like me. "

-end.
dont know where i've seen this but i found it in my mac's note. possibly a reminder from my old self. Watched Oz today. it was good:)