To new beginnings

So the date has been set.
& I'm feeling all over the place.

step 1. submit the letter
step 2. email the co.
step 3. travel
step 4. think again.

New Year, New Beginnings

So I flew into 2015 ( literally ) with a set of seemingly fun people and very pleasant passengers. Lets go, 2015!

the beautiful people of 248

28 Dec, Melbourne to Sin.

Thank you Mrs Lim. You are the most amazing old lady i've served by far and it was my pleasure to be able to take care of you.

Thank you, Oscar, you are the cutest big eyed, intelligent 13 months baby I have seen on board. I hope my child ( if i ever have one) will be as adorable as you.

Flying can be beautiful. It can be tiring and stressful but it can be beautiful. and im going to miss it. 

half fucked

idk if it was flying that changed me, the people that i hang out with that changed me, or it was just me compromising on my beliefs. but i sure as hell feel very much fucked and i think i have only myself to blame. 

need to quit the sticks. 

need to cut the drinks.

need to stop having to deal with shit. 

february. you better leave soph, you better. and thn go do smth abt your half fucked life before its too late.  

the fickle minded

silverwares
woodwares
photography
make up
craft
illustrations
bake
typography
fashion

definitely more

Clean

"
Rain came pouring down when I was drowning

That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean

There was nothing left to do
And the butterflies turned to dust they covered my whole room
So I punched a hole in the roof
Let the flood carry away all my pictures of you
The water filled my lungs, I screamed so loud but no one heard a thing

Rain came pouring down when I was drowning
That's when I could finally breathe
And that morning, gone was any trace of you, I think I am finally clean
I think I am finally clean
Said, I think I am finally clean

10 months sober, I must admit
Just because you're clean don't mean you miss it
10 months older I won't give in
Now that I'm clean I'm never gonna risk it
The drought was the very worst
When the flowers that we'd grown together died of thirst

"

thank you taylor swift, you get me again. 

silly talks.

M: Are butterflies important?

mm. i think they are. at least for me. when i was with him, every single time i meet him i get the butterflies. even after i get comfortable, like when he kisses me, i just wanna melt into a puddle know. and thn now, i just cant feel that way for anyone anymore. and i miss that feeling. its the magical feeling i've been talking about. hah. 

M: thats why im uncertain.

take some time. idk. but some ppl believes that the butterflies will flutter after awhile. mine doesnt though. mine needs to fly at first sight. 

M: same. butterflies don't grow. i guess thats why we are both still single. waiting for them butterflies. not sure if they still exists. 

or maybe cause it was first love thats why it felt magical? idk. 

M: ya soph. maybe we should give caterpillars a chance. 

i hate caterpillars! 

M: haha. squish them 

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