so long

just being the fickle girl i always have been and moving on to another space again. a space just for late night thoughts.

embracing this kind of life while i still can. 

12-14: brisbane

15-16: kuching

17-22: johannesburg//capetown

23-27: taipei (self discovery trip till trash meets me there)

28-30: Jakarta

marathon month but im glad i managed to get it all organised.

life has been good. i just wish mh370 would be found soon cause waking up every morning to check the news to know that there is no news is just getting more and more sad. be safe. someone work some miracle. 

amazing how i got this far

" Men will cheat. All of them. Men are hunters. Dont give your all" says a 44 year old man to me on board the plane from london back to singapore.

" Men will cheat if they have no moral, not enough love for the girls who gave them their all. and it is not love if you don't give your all. you cannot control love. " thats what i think.

my kind of man still exists right.

2.13 am

i ended up thinking about alot of stuff because i decided not to watch another episode of running man and risk not waking up early enough to seize my offday tmr. but i cant fall asleep yet.

i wrote alot. and thn i deleted the whole of it. because its 2014. because there just isnt any point writing about it. and because everything has changed but at the same time, nothing has changed.

Say hello to goodbye

2014 didnt start off very well for me. and i keep having this feeling that something bad will happen on my long awaited london flight but i try not to think too much about it. I just came back from Amsterdam and i would say that its one of my favourite station because there are just too many things to see and do and i would like to go there again. Next time, i will go to the red light district at night and i will go to the flower street and i would cycle.

lately, i dont even have much to worry about. nth too important that is. apart from my extremely dark eye rings, my ever fattening thighs and how i am getting uglier each day. life is kinda mundane but i guess it might be better, safer this way.

tata, and here are just some songs i heard that i like:

hers are really beautiful. my new fave:

now good bye. to all things negative. 

Resolutions

whats a new year without resolutions right.
here goes:

1. To be balanced; work and family and friends and self.

2. To be healthy; exercise

3. To save another $20000 by december 2014

4. To be positive; to not whine about my job even though sometimes i rly want to.

5. To make plans for post flying life and actually do smth about it.

6. To experience snow; build a snowman, have a snowfight and make snowangels.

7. To not remind myself about the past that is not worth mentioning by not mentioning it again.

8. To be patient and honest as best as i can be.

9. To go on a holiday ( korea or taiwan )

10. To leave my hair alone.

11. To drive the car more often. and eventually without mum and dad's supervision.

12. To learn at least 3 new things about myself.

13. To not be in a hurry to be in love and only commit when the magic happens.

14. To paint my room white.

thats all.
marathoning my next 7 days. gogosophyoucandoit!

be patient, be kind. be balanced, be fine.

as the year comes to an end, i'd just like to take time to be grateful for everything and everyone in my life now. this year has been an amazing journey for me and  i was just looking at my resolutions that i made for myself in Jan.

1. Learn to use the sewing machine. 

2. Keep a happy jar.

3. Drive a car without dad being in the car.

4. Get a job

5. Do something about them fat thighs.

6. Get the savings acc balance to 10k. 

7. Paint my room white if we are not moving.

8. Travel to another country

9. Do new things.

10. To not lose any more friends.

11. Grow my hair till its "bun-able"

12. Have more patience and try to just.. see the good in people. 

13. Have a better year than 2012. 

and heres my conclusion:

1. i havent learnt to use the sewing machine. 

2. my happy jar is empty. not because im not happy but because i'm lazy. 

3. i still cant drive dad's car out on my own. 

4. i got a job. 

5. them fat thighs got fatter.

6. i made my first 10000 dollars. on my own okay. 

7. i havent painted my room because mum and dad still cant make up their mind (so annoying)

8. i travelled to so many countries(:

9. i did many new things. 

10. i kept my friends who were close to heart. 

11. my hair is bun-able now. 

12. I have so much patience and tolerance for everything now. but i think i still need to try harder to see the good in people. 

13. 2013 is definitely better than 2012.

half of them achieved. *pats self of back*

time to think about 2014 resolutions.
till then... with compliments to the season, merry christmas y'all.