that anything could happen.

Fine Lady

Another weekend...
I think the best thing that i have gotten out of this 2 day interview would most likely be confidence.
and maybe having to learn to dress and act like a lady. (:

On the table

that, ^^^ was where i was for the whole day at work. Climbing up and down the table to take photos of products in a very cluttered room. my exercise for the day. and thats friday for me. 

tmr marks another possible life changing event. i dont know if i want it that badly but it would be good exposure right? 

BADLUCKXINYI

today was a rly unlucky day.

i woke up on time and was done preparing early so i played candy crush; BAD IDEA, cause i lost track of time and thn i rushed out of the house to get a cab to the mrt station. The taxi driver forgot to on the meter. and so he told me to give him whatever amount i usually pay to get to the station. i gave him 5 and thought like it was quite cheap but thn after that i rmb that usually it only cost me 4 bucks ish. so ok nvm. i wanted to take the train to catch my shuttle bus to my work place and DANNNNNNG i forgot to bring my ezlink card. so i wanted to buy the standard ticket but i looked at the queue and i knew i wouldnt be able to catch the shuttle bus if i were to join the queue. SO I UNWILLINGLY TOOK ANOTHER CAB and arrived at my work place to realize that I FORGOT TO BRING THE CARD TO TAP INTO THE OFFICE. so i paced back and forth for awhile till someone from inside noticed me and came to my rescue. ALL OF THAT NONSENSE WITHIN AN HOUR. and i had to pay 2 bucks to go back to yishun and another dollar for bus. and i splurged on my meals to comfort myself. spent 49 bucks today. more than half of my entire day's pay. imagine the amount of raging shittyness i was going through. all because i played candy crush in the morning.

SO, DONT PLAY CANDY CRUSH IN THE MORNING OK.


but i met kianru AGAIN and my love bonito parcel came. so i feel slightly better now.

funny how life was planned.

Recently, a stranger passed away. She is from China and is a mother of two. Accident in a taxi. My uncle's taxi. My uncle survived, her children survived. but she didnt make it.

and thn came the death of the Singapore comedian. I've seen him before. on the boat in Malaysia. I was asking my mom about his age and mum told me " around daddy's age i think." That was last night. So it took my some time to fall aslp. I was thinking about how scary it is that anyone could be next. I used to think about this kinda things a lot. like.. ALOT. and i would cry imagining people i love leaving me. last night, i just tried to remember all the good things my parents did for me. I hope they get to see me get a degree, get married and have a family. I hope they get to hold they grandchildren and i hope i can buy daddy a garden to plant his flowers and fruits.

i'm so wordy again. but i just feel like parting is so sad. :/ and i cant not think about it cause i know it will happen one day. time is such a scary thing.

OK enough.

I met kianru today. ALWAYS GOOD TO END MY DAY W HER.
and here is our mandatory bus shot in the midst of the chaos of me trying to find my ezlink card.

bubye

i'm just a fool

came across this on syl's blog and its been on replay for an hour now.

38.6

its 9.27a.m; i should be at work but i'm at home, still in the comfort of my bed and blanket cause i've been running a fever since yesterday. must be that curry i had on sunday cause i felt like my throat was dying after that curry. The weather is really nice for sleeping in so i might just continue my sleep after this entry.

Weekend was fulfilling, i went to handmade movement with my bunch of poly girls.

and thn i got addicted to this game called candy crush-..-
thats bout it.

Before you know it.

time really flies. my hair is long enough for me to forcefully tie it; thats how i know.
i went out with my cousin after work with the intention to get some CNY clothes but we ended up getting some lame stuff. i got another pair of shades. i think i'm addicted to buying shades. and shoes and knitted tops. and oily food. (need to lose that 3kg but i dont even think its possible. i'm constantly hungry! /takes a bite off chocopie from fanny)

and here is a bad pic of us. FYI, no i did not tie 2 ponytails. those are my feather earrings.

and YAY tmr is FRIDAY. 

Z_Z

lack of sleep. thats what my life is all about for this week.

i'm sitting here, sketchbook still on my lap and my waacom pen in my right hand while i type this. and i foresee myself getting my sleep at only 3am. partly cause i always get distracted, like now. Awhile ago, i was looking through my film pics on facebook and came across this one of Oscar. and i actually felt really sad cause i realise we didn't even have a proper goodbye. but haha, i think he won't even remember me. like his owner.

today is the day i start feeling like i might not like this job. cause there is so much to do i have to bring work home. which sucks. but i met Terri today after some time and we tried to catch up over our chicken rice. and thn i came home to the news that my daddy helped someone today and he strike 4d so he is giving me shopping money. THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TO ME THIS WEEK by far.

ok i'm going back to my logos.

"bitter"

i can forget about sleeping tonight; work stuff. with bruno singing and making me slightly emotional.

"our song on the radio but it dont sound the same.
my heart breaks a little when i hear your name.
too young too dumb to realize."

one day. one day i'll not care about yours answers. because there will be someone else who matters more. but that one day isnt here yet. i just got to be patient.

Hectic Weekend

This weekend was crazy crazy.

A big part of that was due to the fact that i had my virgin club experience with a bunch of very awesome friends; syl, jess and tiff at Zouk. Never thought i'd like that place but i had so much fun i think i might just go again. Thanks girls, for the free VIP entry, the free shots and for asking me to go in the first place. it was a great first time for me. Bad pics cause we only had my BB to rely on.

and i went swimming the next morning with my favorite girl.

i feel pretty accomplished for sticking to my saturday swim session even though i only slept for an hour or so. and because weekend was really short and precious, i went to the bank and to the post office thn to clementi to develop my 5 rolls of films before heading to chinatown to meet the guys and fan. Had brunch at this quiet cafe and food was pretty good but i didnt finish my food but it was more due to the fact that i was lazy to chew than because i was full. And sunday just saw me helping mum out at her shop and doing loop stuff. 

tmr is monday again. i feel quite sad, wish people at work were a tad more fun. 

on another note, i'm pretty touched by my brother today. Which is something really rare because he usually just tells me how he thinks i'm not pretty and how he thinks i'm irritating yadah yadah. but i had a mini htht with him just now and he was so comforting. :') "don't worry, you're like 5 times better than her" thats all i need. for someone to say it to me with that much confidence. It might not be what everyone else thinks but that coming from him, it meant alot to me. 

Same Old.

Let me share another song with y'all since its just been another mundane day at work

Somewhere only we know:

:*

This is the laaaaaaaast time~

All Time Low, Again.

I cant wait i cant wait i cant wait omg so excited.

and my job is surprisingly getting more and more interesting. i'm gonna photograph models next week.
Jan is gonna be exciting!

"whats real is real"

First day of work; bad location, boring orientation, nice people, boring work and okay workload.

But here's to the start of more small money to add on to my savings. I need to save so i can go back to secret paradise, go visit syl, and go somewhere nice and new.

_

One of the things i cannot stand would be people who uses my opinions and make it sound like its theirs and don't think there is any problem with it. If you agree with me in the first place thn its ok but if you're like no no no when i told you what i think, thn don't you use my words like its yours in front of others later. Especially not when i'm around. not like i will stop being friends with any of these people but it just annoys me. Feel like a bitch for saying this but there is a limit to my tolerance.

Today was just a boring day. but i did have a good meal for dinner. (:
Korean BBQ with my family.  I usually don't take beef cause it comes from the cow and i refuse to take anything that comes from the cow but i took abit of this beef and its the best i've tasted; maybe cause i only tried beef less than 5 times in my life.

and... nothing nothing nothing. my life is boring like that.

Longwinded Grandma.

Today was a total plan fail day. other than the first part of the day which saw me and my bestfriend walking through the park to swim. srsly, thank you kianru for tolerating this bad package (me). I love you so much and i hope that we'll be sisters in our next life. but we'll be the loving sisters and not the kind of sisters who hates their sisters. but you cannot hit on the guys i like. HAHAHA. wtf.

Like srsly, she's seen the ugliest side of me; puking, puking, puking, sometimes being a little unhygienic, always getting startled by nothing, whining, crying, going crazy, bad sense of humour, sometimes unintentionally rude, blah blah blah.

Oh, the other day gwen shared w us this "fact" thingy that says something like.. any friendship that makes it to the 7 yr mark is likely to last a lifetime. and dearest babes; kianru, vic, syl and gwen, WE MADE IT. :) 

okay, back to my saturday. so after swimming i was supposed to head down to mummy's place to help out but she was feeling unwell so we cabbed home and slept while i watched "The Notebook" and "Little Birds". Dont watch Little Birds; i think its quite a waste of time. i mean like.. its about friendship and finding oneself but its just not that good. Watched the movies till 5 plus and decided to prepare dinner for my sick mama. Opened the rice pot only to find that its been invaded by the evil weevils. Horrible things. But i still managed to cook porridge for her cause theres another pack of rice. but she woke up and told me that my dad would buy dinner back for us. -..- so i called my dad to not buy dinner. and my mum tried eating the porridge but she just kept wanting to puke so she stopped. and... no. it was not because i suck at even making boiled rice. and thn i just spent the rest of my day texting friends, watching "Alvin and the chipmunks" and reading blogs. 

Tmr will be the last day before i go back to full time job again. which means no more asking me out on weekdays unless its for dinner. but i dont feel like going out tmr. actually i do wanna go to the beach and tan away the ugly tan lines on my body but... idk. 

NTS: stop procrastinating on Loop's stuff. 

kbye. 

+

This morning, i opened my eyes and the first thing i did was not to check the time.
I just stared at the ceiling and decide that i should stop being stubborn and i sent the 2 texts.
which was a really good decision, load off my mind.

Also, it was my last day of work at my part time job. Goodbye to the days of trying to figure out Samy's handwriting. On top of that, my pay is in and i transferred some money to my savings acc; one baby step towards my resolution of saving 10k. YAY.

Gonna have some face food charis bought me, and thn 2 broke girls, thn slp. swimming tmr morning!

would be good if i can stay this positive everyday.

All those frozen strawberries

Before anything, here is a good song.

and...... ......... here are 2 crazypots who just had Arnold's chicken. minus the chicken butt for me but i think that woman ate the butt cause she didn't know where the butt is. Last day of part timer life for me tmr. and then i'm gonna be working elsewhere. for 2 months. and... i'll plan the next step again.

k i'm going back to my 2 broke girls.

Just not yet.

Is it possible to really get over someone? I feel like i will nvr REALLY get over him.
I really dont know how people do it. its so difficult.
Its like i know i am fine and i know that things won't be back to how it used to but i can't help but miss him sometimes. Like when people are talking about something or somewhere and i'll be like " ya i've been there. with him." and i realize i'm smiling as i recollect that piece of memory. and especially this new year's eve. When everyone is out with their partner and out counting down to the start of a new year and all i'm doing is trying not to think too much about how happy i was on the same day just a year ago. and sometimes i tell myself to be happy for him if he is happy now and to be happy for him if he finds someone who can love him for all that he is and that he will really love her back and they'd be happy but sometimes when i think about how bad my first relationship is, i just hope that he won't be happier than me. and other times, i just want to know what actually happened but sometimes i don't cause not knowing might be better. idk. and idk why i let myself write about this on the 3rd entry. *shrugs*

Today was alright. I went to work thn i went shopping with my dearest cousin. We bought alot and i'm quite satisfied. (: gonna watch 2 broke girls and slp cause there is work tmr. again. i've been reduced to a boring office nut.

NTS: renew passport, transfer money to savings acc and try not to talk about the past anymore.

01.01.2013

I spent the first day of the year waking up at 1pm with a slight fever which thankfully subsided after i drank like almost a bucket of water. and then i had a great dinner with my brother at Pique Nique. Pretty good food but not very good service.

Hi.

Happy New Year Everybody. Its 2013 and I'm really glad that 2012 is finally over cause it was too eventful, i'm afraid, for my heart to take; good and bad.

Summary of 2012:

Losing a feathery friend and feeling extremely upset.

Sky; my very beautiful blue fighting fish, passed away

Lucky passed away after 13  human years; Lucky was my second dog that stayed with us only for a few months when i was still in Primary school before we gave it to our aunt cause they had a bigger place and the dog would be happier with them. well, pretty sure its in a better place now. 

Finally graduating, getting a job, leaving the job.

Krabi with syl and having my first attempt at snorkeling. Also, first time sitting on a moving motorbike!

Had my first experience at prawning.

Visited USS and conquered all the rides.

Experienced GV Gold Class.

Played golf.

Crazy ride in a Monster truck that was driving through a mudpool.

Climbing onto the top of a lorry in the middle of the night and hiding from police cars.

Visited S.E.A Aquarium.

Participated in MAAD.

Tried hot yoga

First time watching how a tattoo is done.

First time calling an ambulance for somebody.

First time picking durians, and in a pitch dark forest.

Got a sewing machine

Volunteered at Mdm Wong's Shelter and almost got bitten by a dog that was bigger than me.

Had a bad perm. Chopped off my hair. 

Attended more than 3 wedding ceremonies. 

Tried smoking.

Bangkok with the family.

Fell in love with tea. 

Went to Batam and JB.

Getting my heart broken. Getting back up. 

I was reading my resolutions for 2012 and i feel like i've been too impractical. 

So this year, i made sure my resolutions are more realistic and achievable:

1. Learn to use the sewing machine. 

2. Keep a happy jar.

3. Drive a car without dad being in the car.

4. Get a job

5. Do something about them fat thighs.

6. Get the savings acc balance to 10k. 

7. Paint my room white if we are not moving.

8. Travel to another country

9. Do new things.

10. To not lose any more friends.

11. Grow my hair till its "bun-able"

12. Have more patience and try to just.. see the good in people. 

13. Have a better year than 2012. 

okay. 13 resolutions for 2013. Will make every single one of that happen.

Anyway, new year's eve was really cold this year and i spent it by hibernating, mopping the floor, watching 2 broke girls, painting my nails, watching wreck it ralph with my cousin, hiding behind a pillar to avoid someone, and uhm sitting here and typing this with a towel on my head. I did think about how i spent new year's eve last year and last last year and its kinda bittersweet. but its a new year and i'm going to embrace all the good things that is waiting to happen to me. I have a feeling this will be the lengthiest entry of 2013.