words, they spread like wildfire.

today is a very disappointing day for me.
and also a very frustrating one. heard some stuff i dont wanna hear.

i imagine myself bumping into you on the streets. and i will punch you so damn hard. and i will keep punching you till you get so mad that you push me away. and i will be on the floor. crying. and i will regret all of that. because i know i'm worth so much more. i just dont know why i can still get affected after so fucking long and that is what makes me extremely pissed with myself.

"you don't love him anymore. you are just really hurt by what happened but it will get better"
Look in the mirror and say that 10 times.
if it doesnt work, say it 10 more times.
everyday after shower.
and thn it got better. and i stopped crying. and life got better.

but of course you wouldnt let me be happy.
you wouldnt keep to your end of the promise. (you nvr did anyway)
so you do things to make me feel like a fool.
and today i really did feel that way. and i hate you for that.
i hate it that you still lie.
i hate it that you're such a jerk.
i hate it that i have had to meet you.
i hate it that i fell in love with you.
and i hate it that i cant seem to escape hearing about you from people around me and none of it is something i would like to hear. none.

monster, stay away. stay away from my happiness.